And...........Go

As much as I'm unsure that it'll be of interest, I'm going to try and document something about my day.
A bit of background then; I've just turned 30, I'm unsure I enjoy any aspect of my life apart from time on my own. I'm not going to focus on huge issues I should add. Rather the minutiae of my life as this is eternally more interesting than my political opinions. Not that I'm clever nor interesting enough to pull off talking about MPs. I'm not even interesting enough to talk about M&Ms. But more about them a different day. Maybe.
Today, I realised I don't really like my job and I was desperately thinking about alternatives. My long term goal was always primary teaching but now I get paid too much to take the wage cut and I feel trapped. The trouble with me is that I get an idea into my head and then react without thinking. That's why I left the love of my life when I did. Or when I accepted another job without informing my current employers and they found out when an email hit asking for a reference. I live so muvh inside my own head that it's scary.
I looked into doing a Masters in Creative Writing but I'm not sure the outlay os worth the reward. It seems that it wouldn't actually open any doors for me career wise.
I talked to my ex recently and I was complaining that I want a job I enjoy and that makes me happy but she did't think that exists. I hope that isn't true.
Anyway, this entry will be shorter than usual but I will try and log every day.
Cheerio chaps, you've been great.